Let the Wild rumpus start!

Flying out in the morning to go visit my parents. Excited!

Going out with Sam tonight. :) Much needed.

I want to meet a Russian boy and become friends.

Finally texted me back. Decided to just talk to him to ease my mind before I go on leave. Asked him what he wanted and told him how I felt, nicely. Although I really wanted to cuss him out and tell him he’s been a jerk lately. Asked him what he wanted and he asked what I was talking about and what I thought we were. I said Friends who have sex basically and he said yea and he didn’t know why I was flipping out. I wasn’t it was a simple question. So I said so basically all you want is friends with benefits? So he said that maybe we shouldn’t hangout anymore because he’s not looking for a relationship and that obviously I want more.

Well, I’d like to have had a happy birthday at least. Ass. I told him I’d get my stuff when I get back from leave. And I want all of it back. My blanket, pillow, spoon, plate, computer, and towel. I’m happy I found this out now instead of wishing and hoping for him to be the one. Obviously he’s not.

Just have to keep reminding myself that God has someone for me. May not be tomorrow, or the next, or even next year, but someday someone will love me forever.

I just need to be done with him. Cuz being treated like crap for no reason is bullshit. He deleted 3 of my posts on his facebook because he said he hates when people postin all that shit on his wall and that’s what messages are for. How is posting “Hey Sam and I are making lots of food Friday, so if you’re not busy you should come!” shit? Please tell me. But yet, he let’s other people post random shit on his wall. Seriously, that’s you’re reason. Well fuck you too then. He’s cute and has a nice body and that’s hard to come by, but when you’re attitude and the way you treat me starts sucking, then buh-bye. I text him today just to see if he’d respond and he hasn’t, so I doubt he’ll hangout tomorrow. However, he has one of my blankets, pillow, towel, spoon, and plate. I’d like them back. He better respond or I’m calling him and I won’t be too happy.

I honestly don’t know what happened or what I did. I feel that I didn’t do anything wrong. He’s either talking to someone else and doesn’t want them to know about me or he’s going through a hard time and can’t share his feelings and tell me, otherwise I don’t know. I give people chances, but I can only give so much before I can take being hurt for so long.

I don’t understand how some people can be like that. I even let him borrow my car the other day. WTF was I thinking, right?!